Thursday, February 4, 2010

Home to Mourn

When Sophy found the presence of absence, she was... pissed. Jimmy took her home to mourn, but Sophy didn't want anything to do with that. She wanted to fill her moments with life, not face darkness, emptiness, loss and death. Returning from her war, Sophy most wanted to step into the bright currency of life, yet found herself in the darkness of home. Without Jimmy's guidance, she would have taken the fugitive run away from mourning. Instead she stayed there. The dark night would transform...

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We mourn the death of individuals, but what about the little losses and 'small' deaths in our own life and those around us? ' The small losses get quickly swept away, tossed into the trash, shredded, or deleted. When the wave of grief and anger (or some negative emotion) shows up unannounced at the wrong time, we act surprised. Where did that come from?

We want to feel normal, not feel bad. We stay distracted - turning the presence of absence into the absence of presence. And so, all the little losses and little deaths accumulate into something much bigger. The Presence of Our Absence always returns.

1 comments:

Macrina said...

I absolutely love the phrase, THE PRESENCE OF ABSENCE, It is meditation worthy. And I am awed at how you are able to enter into the lives of those you are writing about...sorting of living in their souls.

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